One day at a time

1 Jan 2021

It feels odd to see in a new year, one that many are filling with hope, and not acknowledge the difficulties of 2020. It's easier, though, to look forward and imagine all the possibilities that 2021 might bring; more vaccines becoming available, lockdowns easing and one day, ending, no longer being in a global pandemic but instead, moving to a new normal that loosely resembles life 'before'. Never have I felt more unsettled as we start a new year, trying to focus on my own little bubble and things I have control over, whilst wondering how 2021 could possibly outdo 2020.

A picture of water at a Leicestershire nature reserve

Instead of treating today as some sort of saving grace, I'm looking at 2021 realistically and keeping focus on the things I do have control over. Granted, that's not much right now, but it's enough. I'm keeping goals in sight, adjusting to life as someone who is newly redundant and getting used to not being either in education or work for the first time in my life. I'm finding my feet with being the parent of a primary school child, and keeping a toddler at home entertained, when there's nowhere to go and nothing to do.

I'm trying to push aside my worries and fears, and shift that focus to my personal goals. I'm still moving more, I'm still working out, I'm still improving my diet; I'm working towards a place where I am physically and mentally stronger, fitter and healthier, and that's one thing this pandemic has afforded me. Time, in abundance. Time to do things I always said I was too busy for, time to reconnect with old hobbies - such as this blog, and reading -, that my mind was too jumbled to cope with before. Whilst it feels out of place whilst people are dying, I've had the time to get excited again.

So whilst I won't see in the new year with promises of a better year, treating January 1st as a clean slate as though it erases 2020, a year I don't think any of us will forget and fully recover from, I'm throwing caution to the wind and allowing myself to look forward, just a little, to a time when it might feel easier. Where those of us who come out the other side, can find a way to be positively impacted by the experiences we've shared, where we cherish the communities we have built during this time, and appreciate the chance we've been given to keep going forward, when so many have not.

Let's take it one day at a time, shall we?